As the new month approaches, I am considering whether or not to "do" Self-Stitched September. I have noticed a lot of sewing bloggers expressing photo fatigue, but it is hard to get into the swing of the thing if you don't feel compelled to show the evidence of daily outfits.
Photo: Day one of Me-Made June 2011
I find myself at a point where I have sufficient me-made garments to survive a month without too many repetitions. I already know from the previous exercises, last September and this June, that my big downfall is the warm woolly layer - which is crazy when you consider that I spend every evening of my life knitting!
The weekend's windstorm had me itching for a seasonal wardrobe purge. I feel ready to do something radical and ditch all the "unhappy" items in my wardrobe: the too-big skirts, the droopy-waisted trousers, the starchy 1990's work shirts, the mouldy shoes (which still stink of mildew after being cleaned and polished - ugh!) Some of these items were me-made but they either don't fit or are just hopelessly dated in a non-vintage way. I never wear them, or if I do I don't feel like "me" and catch sight of my reflection looking a bit slumpy with sunken shoulders and no smile. That's no good!
Time for a confession: at every key stage in my life I have found myself confronting the same character flaw: I do not have the confidence to invest in "a look". So, when (aged 17) I saw the cool girls mooching around the University campus wearing a leather jacket, vintage cotton dress, creeper shoes, jet black floppy-fringed hair and massive eyeliner, and looking effing fabulous, I responded by tying a length of stretch lace round my enormous mousey 'fro and buying a pair of black plimsoles. Yeah, Roo, a real style statement!
My best style moment was probably Leeds in 1985-6
(aged 21) when my boyfriend gave me his black leather biker jacket and I got my hair cut into an edgey platinum blonde bob at Snipperfield's Circus, the (scary) arty hairdresser. I had two pairs of black leggings, a couple of mohair jumpers, a black jersey tube skirt, monochrome stripey t-shirts and big boots. Less was definitely more! I looked
fierce! And I have no photos to prove it, dammit!
But then what happened? The pressure to find and hold down a job (aged 22 onwards). I quickly learned that the boss would call me into his office to "turn around" if I was not smartly dressed, i.e. no trousers (let alone leggings), no t-shirts, no Doc Marten's. So I conformed to the accounts clerk uniform of straight knee-length skirt, freshly-ironed blouse, skin-toned tights and low-heeled shoes... and obliterated my personality in the workplace.
But you know what? I am not that girl anymore! I am Roobeedoo
(aged 46 and three quarters) and I am not going to be squashed into corporate anonymity!
There is still a dress code of sorts where I work now, but I have noticed that I receive only positive comments when I push my look that bit further, red lipstick and all!
Photo: the day I pushed my look, Me-Made June 2011
And it occurs to me that, contrary to what you might expect, the person who has shot through the ranks fastest in my current organisation is the girl with the strongest look - and I
know that her rapid promotion is due to the confidence she exudes. OK, she is 20 years younger than me (and has amazing legs and a
filthy laugh), but I am not aiming to emulate her, I am aiming to have the confidence to simply BE MYSELF at work! That's enough - I don't want the spotlights thank you!
So watch this space. This is the Roobeedoo Remix, Vintage Edit!
Maybe that is the focus for my Self-Stitched September! :D